My head has been spinning lately with thoughts of all the various areas of my life that I want to alter and improve. I feel compelled to work on these things, to better myself, but I know I cannot undertake too much at one time. Change and me aren't the greatest of friends. I don't exactly abhor change, but I certainly don't embrace it either. If I attempt to change too much in a short amount of time I'll end up failing miserably on all counts. So I've decided to focus on just a few of those areas for the immediate future.

In no particular order, they are:

This involves both my weight and my fitness level. As I've written about previously on this blog, I struggle to gain weight. A year ago I was borderline underweight. I weighed 120 lbs. Thanks to some wonderful cooking and great encouragement from my lovely and wonderful wife, I am now up to 141 142 lbs. This is definitely a more healthy weight than where I started, but I desire to add on another 20 lbs or so. The higher my weight gets, the harder it is to add more on, so it's definitely an uphill struggle. Coupled with adding more weight is improving my physical fitness. For many years now I've not exercised at all. I'm going to work on changing that. I'm horribly out of shape. My physical endurance is pitiful. Make me run for four minutes and I'll be just about keeled over and gasping for breath. I won't be hitting up the gym anytime soon (can't afford it!), but I can at least do some basic exercises at home, such as pushups, situps, lunges, running on the treadmill, and so on.

No, I'm not mentally ill! Not that kind of mental health. Three men in the last two generations of my family tree (my dad, my dad's dad, and my dad's uncle) have suffered from early onset dementia and passed away from complications of the same. It is not known for sure what causes this disease, but if memory serves me correctly I have a better chance of not getting the disease myself if I take care of my physical and mental health, exercising both my body and my mind. So I need to work on that. I'm not exactly sure what approach I'll take for the mental health one, except that initially I'm going to work on educating my mind more than I have been by reading more books. As a child/teen I used to read a lot. I remember bringing home a stack of books from the library on a fairly regular basis. When I started working and going to school I found I didn't have much time left over for reading. On top of that with my narcolepsy I simply couldn't stay awake long enough to read more than a couple of pages of just about any book. My Xyrem medication helps me so well that I can actually stay awake while reading a book now! I've done a little reading here and there, but nowhere near what I used to. I have a couple books I've just started with a couple more on the way from the library so I'll definitely have to spend more time reading if I'm going to get through all of the books in a timely manner.

In recent weeks I have been challenged on several occassions to connect with God on a deeper level, to spend more time with Him, to learn more about Him, and to grow closer to Him. I am going to work on doing just that.

I'll try to write about my efforts from time to time. Hmm, maybe I could even use that as my new blog title: Revising My Life. What do you think?

Life should be, I suppose, a life-long journey of altering/improving/revising who I am and how I live, continually striving to become the person God wants me to be. That is why I think it might fit to use "Revising My Life" as my blog title. It also sounds better than my current blog title. :-) I suppose just about anything would sound better than "Anemic Slime Stew" though!

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