tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.comments2023-05-23T04:36:59.716-04:00Revising My LifeJessehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07354609550701638200noreply@blogger.comBlogger49125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-89221903828324301762014-07-10T20:09:17.188-04:002014-07-10T20:09:17.188-04:00Yes you must revise and act on changing your life....Yes you must revise and act on changing your life. i have had the misfortune of having my husband suicide as he could no longer cope with this double life, and we had been married for over 40 years. i believe it goes back to being sent to boarding school at aged 5 thereby never forming attachment to his mother thereby eventually developing an insatiable need for constant adoration from others, usually women but also men. in the end he was telling me i was too good for him and he wanted me to end my life with him.....believe me after he died and i discovered so much more i also felt like doing so but i could not put my kids through that again....let me tell you that the pain your wife feels is truly unimaginable, absolutely, the betrayal and deceit is indescribable.....you need to find a way to make yourself develop some self worth and self respect because you like my husband, obviously lack both, i hope your wife moves on without you, because i fear you are destined to continue to wreck havoc with other people's lives.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-11891591525868512013-02-19T01:40:42.329-05:002013-02-19T01:40:42.329-05:00This is something every mom should know.I enjoyed ...This is something every mom should know.I enjoyed reading your article. Very helpful indeed. Thanks for sharing this.Domestic Appliance Repairshttp://www.dafplumbingandheatingservices.co.uk/noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-62198578878749344222013-02-19T01:39:44.819-05:002013-02-19T01:39:44.819-05:00This is something every mom should know.I enjoyed ...This is something every mom should know.I enjoyed reading your article. Very helpful indeed. Thanks for sharing this.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.dafplumbingandheatingservices.co.uk/boiler.html" rel="nofollow"><b>Boiler Repairs</b></a><br /><a href="http://www.dafplumbingandheatingservices.co.uk/" rel="nofollow"><b>Appliance Repairs</b></a>Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12913378762010896081noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-33952494989932996412011-02-03T16:42:16.482-05:002011-02-03T16:42:16.482-05:00Hi Jesse,
I just happend to browse through your ...Hi Jesse, <br /> I just happend to browse through your Ancestry family tree to check for updates on the geneaology and came across info on Uriah. I then googled and came across your blog. I'm so very sorry about your loss. (I'm assuming this is your baby? I can't see all info as Ancestry is hiding the story you posted saying it's private). Do we know why Uriah was called home so early? In my church (Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints) it has been said that sometimes these children are just too pure to stay here so God calls them home to keep them safe. They wait for us there while we complete our earthly mission here. Their spirits live on. (I know this is true as I've felt the influence of depaterd loves ones from time to time. It's a real thing). We can be with our families forever. Having lost several early pregnancies my heart goes out to your family. I share in your loss. May you feel the love and prayers of those around you during this difficult time. God bless your family.Stephanie Bhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07546293561373518132noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-10054928643484766142011-01-15T08:08:35.817-05:002011-01-15T08:08:35.817-05:00Sounds great. Good review.Sounds great. Good review.Johnhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01101242277244136485noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-10735379586765315842011-01-04T22:50:26.233-05:002011-01-04T22:50:26.233-05:00Good stuff. My 2011 goals are still on my to-do li...Good stuff. My 2011 goals are still on my to-do list. I like that you have a physical, spiritual, and "way of life" goal. Balance.<br /><br />Thinking of Uriah with you.<br /><br />Love to you all,<br />SamSam Olsonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07122815817590114946noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-80060134903760292042011-01-04T08:21:00.217-05:002011-01-04T08:21:00.217-05:00Looking forward to reading more about the sermons ...Looking forward to reading more about the sermons you have heard and are applying. <br /><br />You get the "searching" from me. I am forever looking for something that I thought I knew where it was. I'm getting more organized, but a move to another home like you've made a few times recently is enough to scramble all your papers again. <br /><br />Thinking of Uriah and that memorable time a year ago.<br /><br />Love all of you<br />MomPatriciahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12726023982168442155noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-30154603602940039152010-11-06T04:31:44.936-04:002010-11-06T04:31:44.936-04:00I had taken Ambien for a time with such a wonderfu...I had taken Ambien for a time with such a wonderful sleep-as never before...NO dreams or thoughts or waking. The military only pays for generic now, and doesn't matter which brand I get (which has to be pharmacy formulary or contract) it does not work at all like Ambien. I even have nightmares.zolpidemhttp://www.zolpidembuy.com/noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-51182527459230811872010-09-20T10:16:31.297-04:002010-09-20T10:16:31.297-04:00puppetmaster, the t-shirt is yours! Leave me a ne...puppetmaster, the t-shirt is yours! Leave me a new comment containing your name and address please. I won't publish the comment for anyone else to see.Jessehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07354609550701638200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-21013888707243547572010-09-14T09:02:34.356-04:002010-09-14T09:02:34.356-04:00I'm going to have to get a copy. It sounds rea...I'm going to have to get a copy. It sounds really good.Patriciahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12726023982168442155noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-71535293607638324372010-09-14T08:58:46.087-04:002010-09-14T08:58:46.087-04:00Don't need the t-shirt, but it sounds like a f...Don't need the t-shirt, but it sounds like a fascinating book. Good review!Patriciahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12726023982168442155noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-17101161522253215022010-03-28T14:50:41.055-04:002010-03-28T14:50:41.055-04:00This was a joy and encouragement to read in so man...This was a joy and encouragement to read in so many ways, Jesse.Gracehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03259081635048685811noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-44580904756927398852010-03-28T08:10:18.575-04:002010-03-28T08:10:18.575-04:00Jesse after reading this post you have touched a p...Jesse after reading this post you have touched a part of me i have buried for years because i left church after I thought God had failed me....I can see now I was so very wrong.. I know you dont even really know me but watching and reading you and your wifes post you two have done more then you will ever know and I just wanted to say Thank you .. She has found the right man to walk be herside <br /><br />Connie GeerAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-54495214801198084692010-03-27T20:33:43.021-04:002010-03-27T20:33:43.021-04:00It is exciting to see how God is working in your l...It is exciting to see how God is working in your life and Hannah's. I can see the blessings He had in your path waiting for your moment of need. Those blessings don't always come the way we expect them to, but if we keep our eyes open to God's working in us and for us we can see His "fingerprints". Thank you for sharing so personally.Patriciahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12726023982168442155noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-49213679360250953472010-03-24T14:50:43.471-04:002010-03-24T14:50:43.471-04:00Jesse,
I have had the very same thoughts you have...Jesse,<br /><br />I have had the very same thoughts you have shared in this post but haven't had the courage to express them on my blog. <br /><br />After Isabel died, we waited quite a long while to try again and to actually pray as a family for God to give us another child. It took my husband a long time and even expressed "I just can't hold another dead baby" to me one night. <br /><br />We reasoned that we can't and don't want to run away from God. We can't protect ourselves from pain by not having another baby (also inflicting pain upon us by cutting off that possibility of new joy). If God wanted to teach us something by suffering, he could use any number of things in our life (death of one of our children that we already have or a spouse) to accomplish his will in our lives. We just believed that God is sovereign over ALL things and we WANT His will despite the cost.<br /><br />Of course, I never in a million years expected it to happen again. We could not believe it when we found out. <br /><br />I am 42 now and it has been so painful to see these last precious years of fruitfulness pass by, trying so hard to add more children to our family and yet it feels to all be in vain. <br /><br />The age factor is scary. We talked to our perinatologist and a genetic counselor. They both have encouraged us to try again. That Isabel and Samuel's conditions were independent of each other and both just random occurances. We know there are no random occurances in God's world. <br /><br />I feel guilty. What is wrong with me? What am I doing to these babies? Can what I do alter God's will? He is sovereign, but can't we screw things up? I wonder all of this all the time. It's tiring. That's why God is telling me to wait patiently.<br /><br />We wonder what would happen if we tried and lost yet ANOTHER baby? What would people do or think? Would they stone us? It's hard because it's such a public display of our deepest hurts. Everyone knows what has happened to us. And everyone has an opinion of what we should do, maybe what we did wrong, etc.<br /><br />When we finally began to pray as a family for another baby after Isabel, we involved the children. They would say, "Lord, please give us another baby? or Please send Mama and Papa another baby that would live and not die?" It was sweet. I know other homeschooling families were praying for us too. You would think that everything would work out...but sometimes it doesn't. (according to our mind)<br /><br />It's hard to understand why God allows some things. But what is the alternative? Where else will we go? No one else has the words of life. In the end, we have to believe that this was God's will for us. I would rather believe God and live.<br /><br />God is the giver of life. He made a woman's body and it seems that as long as she is fertile, God is saying something. <br /><br />I hope I haven't discouraged you. I know our story is discouraging! We are still very afraid to try again. I so wanted that happy ending.<br /><br />God writes different stories. Trusting wholeheartily on the Lord is always a good thing. <br /><br />Love the name Uriah. It's truly beautiful. And I'm so sorry you and Hannah had to lose him. We'll be praying that God will bless you with another baby (or two).<br /><br />;o)Debrahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01203335392569146951noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-20988927561404490522010-03-19T23:16:57.708-04:002010-03-19T23:16:57.708-04:00Sounds like a great book. I have the Jane Austen o...Sounds like a great book. I have the Jane Austen one to read and review.Patriciahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12726023982168442155noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-52119757969777112412010-03-17T17:15:25.341-04:002010-03-17T17:15:25.341-04:00I was so afraid you were going to go into detail a...I was so afraid you were going to go into detail about the books and I haven't read them yet. :) Shooo!Hannahhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10689159388778616060noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-34444897557859314922010-03-11T15:13:28.709-05:002010-03-11T15:13:28.709-05:00Classy! I like it. Love the title too.Classy! I like it. Love the title too.Patriciahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12726023982168442155noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-78169491225048951102010-03-11T09:28:24.356-05:002010-03-11T09:28:24.356-05:00Thumbs up! I love the verse idea. Btw the page lo...Thumbs up! I love the verse idea. Btw the page loaded quickly.Hannahhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10689159388778616060noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-25575788956938535442010-03-09T22:31:31.219-05:002010-03-09T22:31:31.219-05:00Interesting - sounds like we have been thinking so...Interesting - sounds like we have been thinking some similar thoughts. Way to put them into words!Sam Olsonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07122815817590114946noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-19158238802561725742010-03-06T00:04:30.966-05:002010-03-06T00:04:30.966-05:00My hubby and I had this very conversation 3 days a...My hubby and I had this very conversation 3 days ago regarding you and Hannah trying again. We both think it is wonderful that you aren't afraid to continue wanting a family together. <br /><br />If you believe it is in God's hands whether or not you are able to conceive another child, then it will happen whenever he sees fit, not when you do. All you can do is try. Don't give up. I believe it is meant to happen for you.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-39309495944317189992010-03-04T23:05:14.506-05:002010-03-04T23:05:14.506-05:00I love you just the way you are, but I'll help...I love you just the way you are, but I'll help with any one of those dreams. I also LOOOOOOOOVE the new title! Good job Babe!!!Hannahhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10689159388778616060noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-22212431946841299372010-03-04T21:36:25.306-05:002010-03-04T21:36:25.306-05:00I have to second the recommendation for the book T...I have to second the recommendation for the book The Rhythm of Life by Matthew Kelly. I borrowed the audio version from the library and listened to it several times. It's a wonderful book!Rosehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09788450550251183407noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-73152821456635801932010-03-04T12:54:49.446-05:002010-03-04T12:54:49.446-05:00I highly recommend the book The Rhythm of Life by ...I highly recommend the book The Rhythm of Life by Matthew Kelley. Fabulous for all the areas you mentioned, and he says in every book that our purpose in life is to become the best version of ourselves. It will encourage on your spiritual journey in a big way. I like the new title also.Amyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14585588303330685053noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2953503294033820789.post-52479785732059997252010-03-03T23:38:40.503-05:002010-03-03T23:38:40.503-05:00All worthy goals. Love the possible new title.All worthy goals. Love the possible new title.Patriciahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12726023982168442155noreply@blogger.com